Monday, March 19th, 2012
I was debating for a while what I wanted to do with this. I picked it up from Old Navy for super cheap and later on in the week decided I wanted two but sadly, they were completely gone and I checked 3 different Old Navy stores (Rockville, Montgomery Mall, and Tyson’s)! I really wanted to dip dye one of them and stud the other but I guess I have to choose between the two this time 
I’ve worn it a few times just to get a feel of the fit and everything and make sure it didn’t need any alterations first. It’s not perfect but what other way to make it great than to add studs?
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Tuesday, March 13th, 2012
Love him or hate him, every woman who has seen SATC has an opinion on Mr. Big. This man was so flawed but as soon as he sees Carrie again in Paris, we forget every bad thing he’s ever done? I’m not buying it. Sure, he has a ton of great qualities. Or maybe just a few? He’s extremely handsome, successful, and probably some other things too that don’t really come to mind when I think of him. It’s easy to say “I hate Big” but I don’t. Actually, I like him quite a great deal. That’s the problem.
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Thursday, March 1st, 2012
I know, I’ve been gone for a while. I’ve been ridiculously busy and the last thing on my mind has been blogging lol
Anyways, I’ve been reading a lot lately – mostly at work since I don’t do much of anything there lol. I read all on my computer or my iPad so Kindle Cloud Reader, Kindle for iPad and Kindle for Mac have been AMAZING! In case you don’t know, Amazon allows aspiring writers publish their own work and allows the author to get paid for sales (if they choose to put the book up for profit). I’ve been working on a novel (it’s trash in my opinion lol) that I’d like to publish so I researched the easiest way to do this and found that Amazon is the best option. A lot of the time, I like to read these ebooks by these self-published authors and sometimes they’re really good, which is intimidating for me and makes me not want to publish my own, but sometimes they’re terrible and when I’m finished I’m like “I just paid 99 cents for this!!!!” Kind of feels like purchasing an app that crashes as soon as you try to open it! In addition to reading these, I’ve been trying to read the classics.
So basically, since around December up until now – March 2012, this is what I’ve read or what I’m reading. I’m not going to review any of them because tastes are pretty subjective and while I know sometimes it’s interesting to read other people’s opinions on books I just like to keep the messages and what I take away from the book personal like it’s my own private bond or something. And because I’ll probably end up using some if it in my Life Lessons from Fiction lol
*Images from Google or Amazon
Finished
- The Beautiful and Damned – F. Scott Fitzgerald
- Is Everyone Hanging Out Without Me? (And Other Concerns) – Mindy Kaling
- Fallen Eden (Eden Trilogy, Book Two) – Nicole Williams
- United Eden (Eden Trilogy(Book Three)) – Nicole Williams
- The Secret Circle: The Initiation and the Captive Part 1
- Pretty Little Liars (The First Three Books lol) – Sara Shepard
- Jane Eyre – Charlotte Bronte
- Meant to Be – Tiffany King (I know I’m not reviewing but this book is trash)
- Sense and Sensibility – Jane Austen
Currently Reading:
- The Unbecoming of Mara Dyer – Michelle Hodkin
- Vampire Academy – Richelle Mead
- Love Letters of Great Men – Beacon Hill (I’ve read this before but I’m reading again)
- The Perks of Being a Wallflower – Stephen Chbosky
- The Legend of Sleepy Hollow – Washington Irving
I’m also working on posting my bucket list but part of me wants to create a new blog just for that specifically but I don’t know. Maybe I’ll post it here? Who knows.
Friday, January 13th, 2012
“Every movie we see, Every story we’re told implores us to wait for it, the third act twist, the unexpected declaration of love, the exception to the rule. But sometimes we’re so focused on finding our happy ending we don’t learn how to read the signs. How to tell from the ones who want us and the ones who don’t, the ones who will stay and the ones who will leave. And maybe a happy ending doesn’t include a guy, maybe it’s you, on your own, picking up the pieces and starting over, freeing yourself up for something better in the future. Maybe the happy ending is just moving on.”
- He’s Just Not That Into You (2009)
Maybe the happy ending is just moving on.
I’m not going to lie, emotionally – it’s taken me a long time to get where I am. I’ve had incredibly bad luck with men over the past few years and to be honest, I’m not sure who is at fault anymore. Sure, every situation is different but that doesn’t mean I react differently and adapt to each which can mean I am just as much to blame for these failures. While another person’s actions and how they treat me may not be my fault, I’d be stupid to think that my blatant hatred (okay more like dislike) of myself didn’t play a part in some way. Personally, I feel that low self-esteem makes a person vulnerable which I believe is why I let some of these men into my life in the first place. Had I felt I was worth more, maybe I wouldn’t have let someone make me feel like I was worth/deserved less. I seem to be naturally drawn to men that I know will hurt me, or maybe they’re drawn to me. I shouldn’t feel like I have to settle for a man that has no issue with cheating on me. That’s not what I want, nor do I want a man who is willing to cheat on his girlfriend with me. I don’t want to feel like it’s okay to be some one’s second choice because their first didn’t work out, knowing that if the opportunity arises and their first choice suddenly wants them – they’ll drop me as fast as they possible can. Sadly, most of the men that have shown “interest” in me are in one of those categories. While I don’t feel like I deserve it, that’s the reality that I have to live with. Maybe there’s signs I’ve missed along the way that were spelled out clear as day but I chose to ignore. All I know is that every single time, I’m left to pick up the pieces of what I’ve allowed someone to so easily break.
I’ve been so focused on making things work with people that I shouldn’t try with. Like the quote says, maybe the happy ending doesn’t include a guy. I’m letting go of any emotional baggage I’m carrying, it was getting too heavy anyway. Grudges? No thanks, I’m moving on. Whatever happens from here on out will be dealt with accordingly. I’ll no longer go into things expecting the worst; I’m going to start expecting the best and adopting a more optimistic way of thinking. It may not be easy to completely change the way I look at things but if I just take it day by day in baby steps, the hope is that it’ll get easier as time goes on. It’s too easy to tell whether or not my happy ending will include a guy, I’m only 23 and I’ve seen/experienced so little. It would be naive of me to think that finding me soul mate (although that’s not something I generally believe in) would happen when I want it to happen, even more naive of me to think that I’d be ready for something like that to happen right now. The best thing I can do is to focus on myself. The more time I spend learning to love myself, improve myself, build self confidence/esteem, the better off I will be in the long run. The past is officially in the past.
{it’s no secret that I was raised by every form of fiction – be it television, film, or literature, I make no effort to hide that a lot of my feelings and actions, even today, are dictated by what I see and read. These are probably the most personal posts I will ever have on my blog as they are an evaluation of life how I see it and how I feel. Sometimes comments will be disabled. Life Lessons from Fiction is a running series on this blog – to see more of the series click here}
Saturday, December 31st, 2011
Tonight is the last night of 2011. I try not to make real resolutions, I just don’t see the point. Personally, I either forget or give up. Looking back, I can say I’ve had a good year. I got close with people I’ve only been acquainted with in the past. I’ve changed in ways that I can be proud of while staying the same in some ways that I’m not exactly happy with. I think I know myself well enough to know what I would and would not do. I can say I’ll work on myself in 2012, but I probably wont. I probably wont work hard to lose weight, become more social or anything else life changing.
So rather than make resolutions for an entire year, I’ll just take it day by day and live life the best I can – while I can. I don’t want to live my life next year trying to live up to some unrealistic expectations I set for myself just because it’s customary to do so at the end of the previous. I’ll just try to make each day better than the last, if I have a bad day – so what? There’s probably another one tomorrow, kind of like a do-over. So, taking it day by day, tonight I will not be going out. I’m not going to get wasted and puke on a sidewalk. I’m not going to kiss a stranger at midnight. As much fun as it could be to be with my friends, I’m enjoying my family. I could be doing anything in the world right now but I think I made the right choice.
My only resolution? More like advice to myself .. via fortune cookie. Doesn’t really seem like a fortune though… (Sorry for the iphone pic!)
short post but *shrugs*
